That We Might Have Joy...

On Friday, June 26th, 2009, the answer to a fervent prayer was answered. The exciting dream became a reality - we are pregnant. Yes, I am a fully functioning male, able to put a baby in the woman that I love. Lisa and I have been trying to get pregnant for 6 years. I am going to be a father; Lisa - a mother. The realization of a growing, eternal family unit finally coming to fruition.

Lisa told me in the funniest way. On that fateful Friday, we met for lunch at Pei Wei. I arrived ahead of her and was waiting outside on a bench. When Lisa arrived, she noticed me and came running towards me. I noticed the bright pink hue of the shirt she was wearing, and I squinted to read it in the blinding summer sun of Arizona. The shirt declared proudly, "I'm not fat! I'M KNOCKED UP!" She threw her arms around me, kissed me and produced the positive pregnancy test from her purse. She drew back, looked into my eyes and questioned, "No tears?"

I guess I am made of stone - but in that moment, I was filled with thoughts and emotions with the realization that our lives were changing eternally and for the better. In my mind, I thought of the words of my patriarchal blessing (to be shared in another post); I thought of the wonderful joy that will be blessing this choice heavenly spirit that our Heavenly Father has chosen to place in our care. I thought of the struggles, the happiness - the fears and hopes that such a change brings. In the end I was, and am, completely ecstatic.

I am creating this blog as a clandestine journey into my thoughts, emotions and feelings as they progress through this pregnancy. My desire is to share this with Lisa once our child is born - that she may have a journal that will hopefully shed a light on the emotions that I don't always freely share or express.

I love my eternal companion with all of my heart. I am so happy to be taking this journey with her. I am completely in awe of the concept of being trusted with such a special gift. I hope that I can live up to my potential as a husband, father and companion. It's going to be one heck of a ride!